2015 wishes

I admit I'm kinda emotional sometimes.
When the wave comes, I will shut up in my room and talk to no one.
This indeed make some of my friends suffered (Sorry to all my friends ><)
My worst mood swings came after I reach UK.
Maybe because I miss my family and Malaysia. Maybe because I'm lonely.
I rarely happy and feel I can't smile properly any more.

However, when 2015 came, it suddenly struck me and my mind became clear.
Why should I torture myself when I supposed to enjoy my student life?
So I had decided to make a change in the new year.
I'm hoping to become a better person, a better friend. :)

In 2015, my motto is be awesome and stay awesome. Let nothing affect myself from being happy.
Live the life the fullest.

My wishes in 2015:

1. Make new friends.
2. Hang out more with old friends.
3. Reconcile with past enemies.
4. Be friendly to everyone and smile more. :D
5. Do more things that make myself happy.
6. Makes myself looking better than ever.
7. Procrastinate less and do more meaningful things (Its hard I know but I'll try my best)
8. Focus on studies and anticipate the day when summer holiday arrives! Time to go back Malaysia!

FREE HUGS!!!

When you feeling down, aren't you yearning someone to give you a hug?
And I did feel down today.
When I walked out of library and found out there were 2 cute guys standing outside holding a huge cardboard writing "FREE HUGS", I was hesitating for a few seconds.
But they walked towards me, and give me a warm huge hug.
I walked away after saying thanks. And there's a smile on my face.
How wonderful it is to get a hug from a complete stranger and feel the warmth.
They drove away the unhappiness initially I got.
Now I would like to spread the warmth I got to everybody else.

there's no way that we could still be friends

listen to the song you sang to her

listen to the music you play to her

i'm pretty cool even without you

you said what you're looking for is different with me

you said you can't forget about her

you said can we just be friends

I said no way! there's not a chance

that we could still be friends

i just wanna be away

away from this crap

there's nothing left, nothing to be forget

its an empty shell

this is what you left me

boy you're so bad

give me hope but destroy it so soon

so please lets just turn back the clock

go back to the moment that we haven't met

boy you're so bad

makes me fell in love but turn away

so please lets just turn back the clock

go back to the moment when we are strangers

你不在的时候   一直想你

你在的时候     觉得安心

我。。。

是病了么？

得找个时间去精神科挂号了

你不在隔壁的感觉好孤单

这是思念的感觉吗？

本来已经决定不想了

可是你还是一直出现在我脑海中

很想对你说

滚开。。。

给在国外的游子们

白天时受尽歧视贬低 也只能眼泪往肚子里吞

夜深人静时 你们就尽情的大哭吧

把所有委屈寂寞思乡的心情尽情的释放出来

隔天就能换上一个新的面具 重新面对一切

再见了朋友

你说得对

道不同不相为谋 志不同不相为友

我想我们忍了彼此挺长的一段时间了

这段时间 我们吵架过 冷战过 快乐过

但是快乐的时间总是比生气的时候短

我们的原则想法个性都相差太远

所以总是会有摩擦

你的理论大部分我都不认同

而我刚开始忍着不说 可是长期积累下来让我不得不说出来

不然我就会爆发

你是在大学里第一个到过我家的人

我很尽力的招待你

可是我想我家乡是一个相当落后的地方

你的不满意明显地显现在你脸上

本来你打算多留几天

可是你却说你想回去了

我心里想 你这个人实在是太难伺候了

你明白我不喜欢花钱

可是因为没有人陪 所以你硬拉着我去旅行

我也同意了 虽然不太甘愿

但是说要去旅行的人是你 规划一切的却是我

你理所当然地把一切都丢给我

因为我是当地人 处理事情比较容易

这点我也清楚 所以我没有埋怨

可是你在旅行前一晚 我想跟你说隔天的计划时

你却在午夜才回到宿舍 好像对我们俩第一次的旅行毫不在乎

我本来是想早点睡 却一直在房里坐着等到你回来

终于听见你开门的声音 你跟你朋友谈笑着走进屋里

我的怒气已经积累到顶点 虽然我没表现出来

我还是用一如既往的态度对你

直到隔天我才用婉转的方式告诉你我心中的不满

你恍然大悟 可是我猜你心里也不满我吧

那次的旅行基本上一点也不开心

回来以后 我们的关系降入冰点

我们彼此明白这辈子做不了朋友了

没错 你有时对我挺不错的

我的皮夹 手表 雨伞都是你给我的

我一直都记着

但是我已经受够你直白尖锐的话语

所以我开始反击

也许你觉得我不知感恩

可是你偶尔给我的恩惠不代表你可以践踏我的自尊

我晚上睡觉会磨牙 吵得你不能睡觉

我为了你去买了运动牙套 

那种拳击手用的 带了十分不舒服

我没告诉你刚开始带的那段期间 

我每晚都睡不好觉 只为了让你能够不被我吵醒

我不是在说我为了你做了多少事

我只是想说我是真的把你当过朋友

现在我已经从那间大学毕业 很快转到别的国家念书

我们见面的机会已经几近零
离别的时候 我们最后一次拥抱

我们彼此心里有数

那是我们友谊的终点
再见了 让我又爱又恨的家伙