2015 wishes

I admit I'm kinda emotional sometimes.
When the wave comes, I will shut up in my room and talk to no one.
This indeed make some of my friends suffered (Sorry to all my friends ><)
My worst mood swings came after I reach UK.
Maybe because I miss my family and Malaysia. Maybe because I'm lonely.
I rarely happy and feel I can't smile properly any more.

However, when 2015 came, it suddenly struck me and my mind became clear.
Why should I torture myself when I supposed to enjoy my student life?
So I had decided to make a change in the new year.
I'm hoping to become a better person, a better friend. :)

In 2015, my motto is be awesome and stay awesome. Let nothing affect myself from being happy.
Live the life the fullest.

My wishes in 2015:

1. Make new friends.
2. Hang out more with old friends.
3. Reconcile with past enemies.
4. Be friendly to everyone and smile more. :D
5. Do more things that make myself happy.
6. Makes myself looking better than ever.
7. Procrastinate less and do more meaningful things (Its hard I know but I'll try my best)
8. Focus on studies and anticipate the day when summer holiday arrives! Time to go back Malaysia!

FREE HUGS!!!

When you feeling down, aren't you yearning someone to give you a hug?
And I did feel down today.
When I walked out of library and found out there were 2 cute guys standing outside holding a huge cardboard writing "FREE HUGS", I was hesitating for a few seconds.
But they walked towards me, and give me a warm huge hug.
I walked away after saying thanks. And there's a smile on my face.
How wonderful it is to get a hug from a complete stranger and feel the warmth.
They drove away the unhappiness initially I got.
Now I would like to spread the warmth I got to everybody else.

there's no way that we could still be friends

listen to the song you sang to her

listen to the music you play to her

i'm pretty cool even without you

you said what you're looking for is different with me

you said you can't forget about her

you said can we just be friends

I said no way! there's not a chance

that we could still be friends

i just wanna be away

away from this crap

there's nothing left, nothing to be forget

its an empty shell

this is what you left me

boy you're so bad

give me hope but destroy it so soon

so please lets just turn back the clock

go back to the moment that we haven't met

boy you're so bad

makes me fell in love but turn away

so please lets just turn back the clock

go back to the moment when we are strangers

你不在的时候   一直想你

你在的时候     觉得安心

我。。。

是病了么？

得找个时间去精神科挂号了

你不在隔壁的感觉好孤单

这是思念的感觉吗？

本来已经决定不想了

可是你还是一直出现在我脑海中

很想对你说

滚开。。。

给在国外的游子们

白天时受尽歧视贬低 也只能眼泪往肚子里吞

夜深人静时 你们就尽情的大哭吧

把所有委屈寂寞思乡的心情尽情的释放出来

隔天就能换上一个新的面具 重新面对一切

再见了朋友

你说得对

道不同不相为谋 志不同不相为友

我想我们忍了彼此挺长的一段时间了

这段时间 我们吵架过 冷战过 快乐过

但是快乐的时间总是比生气的时候短

我们的原则想法个性都相差太远

所以总是会有摩擦

你的理论大部分我都不认同

而我刚开始忍着不说 可是长期积累下来让我不得不说出来

不然我就会爆发

你是在大学里第一个到过我家的人

我很尽力的招待你

可是我想我家乡是一个相当落后的地方

你的不满意明显地显现在你脸上

本来你打算多留几天

可是你却说你想回去了

我心里想 你这个人实在是太难伺候了

你明白我不喜欢花钱

可是因为没有人陪 所以你硬拉着我去旅行

我也同意了 虽然不太甘愿

但是说要去旅行的人是你 规划一切的却是我

你理所当然地把一切都丢给我

因为我是当地人 处理事情比较容易

这点我也清楚 所以我没有埋怨

可是你在旅行前一晚 我想跟你说隔天的计划时

你却在午夜才回到宿舍 好像对我们俩第一次的旅行毫不在乎

我本来是想早点睡 却一直在房里坐着等到你回来

终于听见你开门的声音 你跟你朋友谈笑着走进屋里

我的怒气已经积累到顶点 虽然我没表现出来

我还是用一如既往的态度对你

直到隔天我才用婉转的方式告诉你我心中的不满

你恍然大悟 可是我猜你心里也不满我吧

那次的旅行基本上一点也不开心

回来以后 我们的关系降入冰点

我们彼此明白这辈子做不了朋友了

没错 你有时对我挺不错的

我的皮夹 手表 雨伞都是你给我的

我一直都记着

但是我已经受够你直白尖锐的话语

所以我开始反击

也许你觉得我不知感恩

可是你偶尔给我的恩惠不代表你可以践踏我的自尊

我晚上睡觉会磨牙 吵得你不能睡觉

我为了你去买了运动牙套 

那种拳击手用的 带了十分不舒服

我没告诉你刚开始带的那段期间 

我每晚都睡不好觉 只为了让你能够不被我吵醒

我不是在说我为了你做了多少事

我只是想说我是真的把你当过朋友

现在我已经从那间大学毕业 很快转到别的国家念书

我们见面的机会已经几近零
离别的时候 我们最后一次拥抱

我们彼此心里有数

那是我们友谊的终点
再见了 让我又爱又恨的家伙

I hope

Broken bottles in the hotel lobby
Seems to me like I'm just scared of never feeling it again
I know it's crazy to believe in silly things
But it's not that easy

I remember it now, it takes me back to when it all first started
But I've only got myself to blame for it, and I accept it now
It's time to let it go, go out and start again
But it's not that easy

But I've got high hopes, it takes me back to when we started
High hopes, when you let it go, go out and start again
High hopes, oh, when it all comes to an end
But the world keeps spinning around

And in my dreams, I meet the ghosts of all the people who have come and gone
Memories, they seem to show up so quick but they leave you far too soon
Now evil is just staring at the barrel of a gun
And I do believe

Believe I've got high hopes
It takes me back to when we started
High hopes, when you let it go, go out and start again
High hopes, oh, when it all comes to an end
And the world keeps spinning
Yeah, the world keeps spinning around

High hopes, it takes me back to when we started
High hopes, when you let it go, go out and start again
High hopes, oh,
And the world keeps spinning
Ooh, yeah this world keeps spinning

How this world keeps spinning around

走你走过的路
做你做过的事
听你听过的歌
那我是否更靠近你一点

不管时间多久    不管距离多远

我依然会站在那里

等你回头看我一眼

你突然消失在我生命里
我不知所措
还没来得及告诉你
看见你 我就不由自已
你潇洒离去 留下背影
我只能在寂静的夜里
偷偷想着你
为你写的那首歌
 我藏在心里

思念你的我

夜已深 思念已泛滥
望着床头 月亮也被乌云掩盖
拿起手机 看着通讯录里你的名
手指犹豫着 在通话键边徘徊
心里想着 你现在过得好不好
那一步 怎么也踏不出去

寂寞的夜里 我在想着你
空气弥漫着你的气息
想到你爽朗的笑容 帅气的背影
一切都那么熟悉

Some little things in life

I had been in doubt of myself. Am I choosing the correct path? Will I regret of my decision in the future? Will people like me if I approach them first? How to live an awesome life?

All of these questions make me feel unhappy. I always envy of other people's life, thinking that why my life can't be awesome as them?

I had been socially awkward. Not knowing how to open my heart to others. Not knowing how to be in company with others. Too shy to make the first approach fearing for rejection. Ignored the guy whom I had a bit of crush on him. I kept thinking how to turn my life to become better. Then, I read an article which inspired me.

http://www.wikihow.com/Live-Life-to-the-Fullest

I will try to apply this on my life. Then see how awesome my life can turn out. =D

Life is too short that we need to spend it awesomely.

Spend your life awesomely and it could be legendary. ;)

冲上云霄 triumph in the skies

During holidays, I watched a few dramas and one of them was triumph in the skies. This Hong Kong dramas is mainly about life of pilot, air steward/stewardess and maintenance crew of airplanes. The pilots dressed smartly and air stewardess were so beautiful and attractive! This makes me feel like want to be one of them too. Pity my height isn't qualified (imma too short T_T). 

Look. They look so yeng~

I browse through the requirements to be a pilot. It was...errr...how I should I put it? Disaster. Never thought that being a pilot is so difficult and so many qualifications to be fulfilled. And you need to pay lots of money to enter the pilot course. I mean LOTS. It can compare with fees of doctor ady. OMG salute.

I had a classmate who quit to become a pilot. I am so envy of him now. He can fly to many countries for free. Somemore becoming a pilot is so exciting. Aih~~my life is so dull compare to him. Everyday study and everyday facing patients after graduate. I got to marry a pilot if I can in future hahaha~

A surprise visitor at midnight

Just before I moved from my old unit to a new one, there was a surprise visitor came to my unit. I still remember the time I first saw her. I was talking to my mum on phone. I was too shocked when I saw her. I gasped. My mum asked me whats going on. Guess what? The surprise visitor was a cute pretty kitten!

I never had a pet before during my childhood as my mum disliked animals due to childhood trauma (she get bitten by a dog! I know I shouldn't laughed~sorry~><). Once my neighbour's rabbit escaped ran to my house, I took care of it. But just for one day and my neighbour took it back. I was sad to let it go. :'(

Enough of my long winded blog. Let me show you the kitten.

See so cute <3. I miss her so much. Hope I can see her again.

My birthday celebration@Capricciosa Pavillion

Sorry for the late post. I had been busying with literature review after my exam. Finally its holiday now. I have time to rest and blog abit about my life here.

From the last entry, I had talked about how busy my life is and how I spent my birthday. I felt so lucky to know a friend from my previous school MSU. I had stayed there for a month before I realised the environment there doesn't suit me. I knew this friend in the interview to enter MSU. I just met her once but I felt like she was my lifelong friend. We had been scheduling to meet up ever since but pharmacy life was so busy that we never had the chance.

At last I asked her out for Italian buffet. And the date was rescheduled a few times due to exams and assignments. The date set to be the day before my birthday. I didn't let her know about my birthday but she surprised me with a birthday cake. I was so touched that tears almost fell off my cheek. T_T

This is the surprise cake my friend prepared.

With nyanko sensei on top~~so cute~<3

We celebrated my birthday at Capricciossa Italian restaurant in Pavillion. It had all you can eat buffet which you can order whatever you like from the menu. It costs RM22.50 per head. Damn cheap right? From the menu, one pasta ady cost RM29.90. It is such a great value. 

Below are some pics of our food. Yum yum~~

Clams and chowder with garlic bread

Salad & soup

Pizzas

Pizzas

Mushroom pasta

Squid ink pasta (unbelievably delicious~)

After the late lunch, we went to walk around Pavillion. As Christmas was coming, Pavillion had set up some decor. It was beautiful. We took some pics of the Christmas decor too.

The decor so pretty right? haha~~ok lah~~thats all for this post~c ya~

Well~I am glad that disastrous torturing tiring 2 weeks dispensing lab finally ended. Finally I got sometime to relax abit and watch drama (I haven had time to watch drama during dispensing lab~zzz). I still got 2 reports and 1 literature review coming(I haven even started OMG!) so I cannot relax for too long~><

My birthday had passed 2 days. I didn't celebrate much. I used the whole day to do report on my birthday. But I went out to Pavillion to eat buffet with friends so I kinda celebrated my birthday ady. Actually that celebration was the surprise my friends gave me. I had no idea they prepare a cake for me. So I am so grateful that at least there are people to celebrate birthday with me this year. (I plan to let my birthday passed secretly lol)

I will blog about my birthday celebration in the next entry.

A break at Fish & Co@1utama

I decide that there is something that more important then study. I NEED A LIFE. Life is not just study study study. So....I decide to give myself a break before continue to fight against tons of homework. I went 1utama to have my lunch. I am being tortured so badly. Its a MUST to treat myself something nice.

Then I remembered the restaurant that serve fish n chip. I celebrated my classmate's birthday there before. And I was very impressed with the mushroom soup there. It is called Fish & Co which located at LG floor. So I decided to revisit the restaurant again.

I reached 1utama at 12 something and found the restaurant without any difficulty. It is already loaded with people. I was served to a table by a tentative waiter. I was then given a menu. I decide on what I am going to eat very fast. The waiter came to me quite fast. He took my order, which is Swiss fish n chip with set including soup and drink.

The Swiss fish n chip is RM16.95 which is consider quite expensive. But as long as it had good quality, I don't mind paying for it. To complete the set, I top up RM7.95 which is more ridiculous. But I am going for the soup, so I still order for it.

While waiting for the food, I start listening to the audiocast made by my lecturer. (still can't fully relax lol~) The soup and drink served first.

The soup of the day is mushroom soup.

The drink I chose is passion fruit fizz.

And finally...THE MAIN

Swiss fish n chip with swiss cheese and lemon butter sauce

Sorry for the missing chunk of fish. I guess I am too hungry. lol~

The portion is slightly smaller than I thought of. Luckily I ordered as a set. As I am a big eater, such a small portion certainly not enough. The meal is abit disappointing as the soup is abit bland compare to last time. But still it is a satisfying meal and I definitely will go back there.

The meal came up to RM29 included gov tax and service tax(I pay it without grudging). 

I bought the Fish & Co membership card before from livingsocial. It contain 50 points that equivalent to RM50. And I bought it for RM25 only! How cheap is that! So my meal is actually RM14.50 ONLY. So no complaint. Haha~

There are membership benefits by applying the card. You can get a free seafood platter for 1 during your birthday month with any main course purchased. And you can get 50% off for mocktails with any main course purchased.
The card valid for 1 year. After 1 year, you can renew it as you like.

Its November OMG

With so many things to busy with, I didn't realised time had passes so fast.
Its November NOW!!! WTH
I had just finished my exam but I didn't get time to relax.
There are still 2 reports, a literature review(which is super hard~ish~) and dispensing lab waiting for me.
Oh god!! I wish there is 48 hours a day.

最近的生活只有一个形容词------累
从我选择念药剂的那一天起
我已经知道我的路不会太轻松

我就是那种懒得无可救药的人
我本来已经下定决心要搞好学习
可是很快就会懒散下来
一次又一次的教训  我还是学不乖
悔恨不停地重复着
就像一个永无止尽的循环

我很想从这个圆圈里逃出来
可是人的劣根性是永远不会改变的
总要有一次痛彻心扉
才能把惰性彻底瓦解

堆积如山的功课    接踵而来的考试
压得我喘不过气
我只能暂时扔下这快把我压垮的包袱
选择享受短暂的快乐

可是这快乐来之不易  需要付出很大的代价
当你刚享受完  你会发现你所要面对的是更加艰巨的任务
时间飞快的流逝  我不愿面对的始终都要去面对
逃避只会让你更加痛苦

我该学习的是如何把压力转化为动力
然后乘着这股动力勇往直前
祈求上师能给我力量突破这个难关
让我能顺利的毕业